Janey235
12 years agoMember
I'm so confused now!
Hello everyone,
Since seeing my surgeon again last Wednesday and listening to what he had to say about a bilateral mastectomy and immediate reconstruction, I'm once again at odds with myself on what to do. I'm still on an emotional roller coaster, one minute feeling comfortable with my decision to have both breasts off and then the next, feeling scared and anxious. Should I really put myself through this? My surgeon, Michael Henderson, said that I will be going through a 'big' op with just the one breast done but both breasts would make the op 'humongous' and I will feel like I've been run over by a steam roller which came back twice more to make sure the job was done. I guess he was just letting me know what I would be in for but this has given me the heeby jeebies thinking about it. My hubby and I went for a long walk in the lovely Fitzroy Gardens in Melbourne opposite the hospital after we spoke to Michael and I became quite emotional. How in the hell do you make a decision like this? Oh I really don't know! The thing that worries me about not having the other breast off is my emotional well being. Will I worry everyday that I will get this blasted BC in the other breast? Yes I think I will. In putting my thoughts down here, I don't expect anyone to 'tell' me what to do. I just wanted to out in words how I'm feeling in the hope it would help me clarify my feelings in my own mind. Thanks for 'listening' my sisters. BTW I put up a new profile pic with my wonderful husband Ian. It's one of my favourite pics and reminds me of better times :)
Love Janey xx