I'm so confused now!

You're right about the psychological warfare with our minds. I have gone through the ringer with this decision making. I guess all we can do is be guided by our medical team and our gut feelings. I've now made my decision to go ahead with the double. I really believe I would worry all the time about BC in my right breast so I think the payoff is to bear the big op and the pain of recovery but know that I will have a minimal chance of a recurrence. I am aware that there are still risks but I think I could get on with my life better knowing that I have done all I can to prevent it from coming back again and if it does (heaven forbid) I can't beat myself up for not doing this now. My husband and I will attend some counselling that my surgeon has insisted on and also I'm having a second opinion next week which is also what my surgeon wants but I think it's all systems go now. I'll be thinking of you Friday week for your op and I hope it all goes well and you recover quickly. Keep in touch. Love Janey xxx