Thank you Leonie, yesterday on the way into the hospital I said to my husband in the car "It sounds corny, but with all the operations, doctors, tests etc - I am still trying to come to terms with what has happened to me..." My husband said, "I know what you mean, crazy isn't it".......................so how can I expect my kids to understand except it must scare the pants off them! Scares the pants off me! So I have to keep things in perspective I know - I just get a bit 'self-absorbed' from time to time - you know 'woe is me' - I will look forward to going home tomorrow and being with my husband - looking forward and enjoying my new home, please keep in touch x x x