Don't know what to say. Tonya and Fran have said it all. Sometimes we have to sit and wait for the "titbits" from our kids. I raised my two girls mostly on my own when I left my ex husband and their father. It was tough times and there are some times that I am not proud of how I was a mother. For the most of it though I think I did the best I could. Now I am reaping the rewards. I talk to my girls every day or every second day. I appreciate their time constraints but also have time to listen to whatever they need to offload. (I am on the other end of the phone at least). I am sorry that your children aren't "filling your void". They do love you and are probably finding it difficult to "see" you going through this pain. Please put your energies into yourself. You can only be responsible for whatever you do. They will understand one day. When you are well, just keep on contacting them whenever you feel like it. Doesn't matter what they do so long as you do what makes you feel better. Hugs to you Josie. XLeonie