Second time round

Hi Viv, lovely to hear from you. I think I am more fearful this time than last time because it is back after only 3 yrs. I coped really well the first time, after the initial shock, but I feel more depressed this time, and scared. I guess it is still early days, only 2 weeks since I knew it had come back and in that time I have had 2 ops so maybe I am being a bit harsh on myself. I am trying to be healthier now, drinking green juice, listening to my body, resting when I need to. But my job is very stressful and I am worried how I will cope when I go back in a few weeks. I am not in a position financially to stop working or take a lesser paying job. So this scares me too. I feel like I am being very negative this time round, which isn't like me, hopefully I can turn the corner and find my fighting spirit again, which I know is in there somewhere. Once I have been back to my oncologist in 2 weeks and know which treatment I am having I might feel more positive. She did say it is most likely to be changing to another drug (she has taken me off the tamoxifen) and that I shouldn't need chemo this time. I can't have more radiotherapy in the same area so that's not an option. Thank you to everyone for your support xx