My 12 weeks of Taxol chemo experience
Well my 12 weekly Taxol treatments have come to an end – yay!!! All finished this week.
I must say the experience has not been as daunting as I anticipated and I have coped quite well over this per...
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Thank you J Milacic :)
It is good to hear of others being in the same boat but now having that whole experience behind them as much as 2 years :) kind of gives me a feeling that there is light at the end of this tunnel.
It is kind of weird how I am not stressed over losing hair in terms of my appearance (well not yet but I am not there yet I guess) but am affraid of others finding out I have BC and figured hair loss means the whole world finds out as there is no hiding or fast talking my way out of that one.
I just so do not want people to know as thus far the handfull of people who do know have reacted in this weird way where they pretty much look and treat me as "dead woman walking" and I cannot handle that. I have never considered this a death sentance and do not want to fall into the hole and having others treat me as a 'goner' is bound to push me in that direction.
I wish I knew how to ignore that change in disposition from others who learn about my BC But I find that bit hard so not telling for as long as possible (until get through the initial few months is my goal - not sure if it is doable though :( )
I must be honest and say it has all been very surreal until now. I know in definition that I have cancer and even though I can see and feel the lump it is all still 'theoretical' in my head. It will probably not sink in completely until after the surgery when I will be faced with recovery and being able to see there is a 'chunk' of me missing.if bound to make it all very real.
Maybe my priorities change then and I stop stressing over how others percieve me and my situation..
Have to say though, you ladies definitely made it all seem a tad less daunting and a lot more achievable, so, trully, thank you for sharing your experiences