Hi Margherite
I'm sorry you're starting to not believe but it's very normal - you can't be happy and positive every single day. You've been through the hugest upheaval ever, both physically and emotionally. Stay with how you feel - don't pretend that you're okay when you're not. I hope you have someone who will listen to you whinge - if not a friend, do you have a breast care nurse? I didn't want to be a bother to family and friends (which is the totally wrong way to feel, by the way) and my nurse was amazing. This forum is also ideal because we have all been there one way or another and we listen to each other.
I still get the odd stye as well. Throw away any eye products you might have had for a while - I found that this helped reduce the amount of irritation alot. And chest infections make the healthiest people feel low so you are entitled to feel as low as you like.
Thinking of you - it gets better, slowly, slowly.
s