Looking for reassurance please! Big decision to make......

Thanks @Sister, yea, after much consideration i have decided to continue.  
Possibly my biggest hurdle is accepting that I actually had BC in my body.  Like many , i have only felt pain, illness etc from surgery and treatment,  NOT the cancer.
I need to let go and be guided. That is difficult for me but im doing it. I ask too many questions etc. 
Your quote is very good. 
I must remember that I am fortunate to be having chemo as a mop up and not to reduce any cancer etc as many do. That i think is my answer.