That's the only intelligent thing I've ever heard to do with rice cakes!
Those of us who have had a much easier run are hugely sympathetic but it's hard to know what to suggest, and no, with the best will in the world, we don't know what you are going through. I do know if I had to go through this again, I would bear a lot of what I have heard in mind in addition to my own experience and some solutions would simply not be considered. I think almost anything is worth trying once, but not necessarily twice. I am not sure anger or bourbon is the answer, but without viable alternatives, it's far from an unreasonable choice. All we can do is hope profoundly that things get better for you but also support you in your decisions with empathy, without judgement, and with affection.
