Letrozole - Year 2
I'm six weeks into my second year of Letrozole. The good news is my hands have remained better since I took a one month break after six months. They still hurt, both bone and joint pain, especially wi...
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Hi again @kmakm @Romla
Just to get back to some of your earlier questions and prompts - I am seeing a psychologist - the worst was when i was contemplating reconstruction. Although logically i liked the idea of reconstruction, emotionally i just couldn't cope with it. I don't really know why. When the likely result (something with shape but not much feeling, no nipples etc) plus the risks (including extra operations now and later) were reeled off to me by the surgeon, I really balked. Every time i talked to the breast care nurse about it, who was really lovely and experienced and balanced, I would talk and cry through the whole conversation! She was the one who said, "I don't think you're ready to make this decision yet", and she was right, and I hadn't realised that at all. I was just trying to be brave and practical about it all. After that i cancelled all the reconstruction plans for now and i felt better.
At around the same time i went through another stressor related to my extended family which didn't seem big to them but was huge for me, in which my sister-in-law told me that i had done less parenting than my husband (might not sound big, but it was huge for me). She had no way of knowing who had done more parenting, and she was wrong. My husband ,who also said almost the same thing a day or two earlier (after they had both been talking to each other) but didn't remember, didn't think either or them had done anything wrong. I was agitated and distressed for about 6-8 weeks about it because it is really very difficult to raise challenging points with my husband. In the end i got to a place where i could raise it, she apologized (poorly, but anyway i wanted to let it go and i just accepted it); he still said there was nothing wrong but i said i needed him to apologize, retract it, and say it would never happen again! Haha. I really needed that. He agreed and we moved on. I'm still depressed i think but unless i have extra stressors like these (you know, other than cancer) I find it hard to make it to counselling!
I will try to go back to counselling and i really need to get better at regular exercise, daily would be best, because it does help me so much. I am not great at routine. Sometimes i don't know how to fit it around a small child. I do sometimes just do squats and lunges in the house. It's a 2k walk to town and i used to push him there and back in the pram and we both liked it, but he doesn't like it anymore, and he also won't walk or bike it yet either. Sometimes we put on music and dance.
Hope you're all ok today x
Just to get back to some of your earlier questions and prompts - I am seeing a psychologist - the worst was when i was contemplating reconstruction. Although logically i liked the idea of reconstruction, emotionally i just couldn't cope with it. I don't really know why. When the likely result (something with shape but not much feeling, no nipples etc) plus the risks (including extra operations now and later) were reeled off to me by the surgeon, I really balked. Every time i talked to the breast care nurse about it, who was really lovely and experienced and balanced, I would talk and cry through the whole conversation! She was the one who said, "I don't think you're ready to make this decision yet", and she was right, and I hadn't realised that at all. I was just trying to be brave and practical about it all. After that i cancelled all the reconstruction plans for now and i felt better.
At around the same time i went through another stressor related to my extended family which didn't seem big to them but was huge for me, in which my sister-in-law told me that i had done less parenting than my husband (might not sound big, but it was huge for me). She had no way of knowing who had done more parenting, and she was wrong. My husband ,who also said almost the same thing a day or two earlier (after they had both been talking to each other) but didn't remember, didn't think either or them had done anything wrong. I was agitated and distressed for about 6-8 weeks about it because it is really very difficult to raise challenging points with my husband. In the end i got to a place where i could raise it, she apologized (poorly, but anyway i wanted to let it go and i just accepted it); he still said there was nothing wrong but i said i needed him to apologize, retract it, and say it would never happen again! Haha. I really needed that. He agreed and we moved on. I'm still depressed i think but unless i have extra stressors like these (you know, other than cancer) I find it hard to make it to counselling!
I will try to go back to counselling and i really need to get better at regular exercise, daily would be best, because it does help me so much. I am not great at routine. Sometimes i don't know how to fit it around a small child. I do sometimes just do squats and lunges in the house. It's a 2k walk to town and i used to push him there and back in the pram and we both liked it, but he doesn't like it anymore, and he also won't walk or bike it yet either. Sometimes we put on music and dance.
Hope you're all ok today x