I'm back at work @tarav
I can't say it's been easy but I'm steadily building my hours up. Now I know what I'm doing, it's a lot more comfortable. The first year was horrible; between fatigue and constantly making stupid mistakes I'd end most days crying on the way home. I was definitely my own worst enemy--Id been so used to operating at high speed and high levels that finding out I could barely manage a band three position was demoralising. At best.
Anyway, I just do what I can and try not to look back, there's no point.