Just need some feeling of hope

Hi there @"Prime time" ..sorry for the price of the  entry ticket, but welcome. I was diagnosed stage 3 grade 3  multifocal with at least one axilliary node on the  left side. I was also told I was  to have  neoadjuvant chemotherapy, which freaked me out. The thought was  in my head that just because I was older  (58 at the time) and a public patient, I was not a priority. I thought that they were  just putting me on the chemo first because their surgery lists were full, and that this was a way of putting me in a sort  of holding pattern until they could do the surgery. Well my lovely breast care nurse put me  straight on that quick smart!!. She told me that I was in fact considered a young patient and that my natural inclination to have the breast removed soon, that week, that day, right now if possible, was also understandable. She further explained that the cancer in my breast was not going to kill me, but that any cells from the breast which had escaped and gone walkabout, would. These cells were their  priority to eliminate as soon as possible, before the took root and grew. The chemo would, at the same time, work on the cancer in the breast, and shrink it so that when the surgery took place, it would not be as spread out and large within the breast itself. Well I did the six months of chemo, each day feeling like an assassin was living in my left breast and was going to kill me for sure. Then I had the surgery (both given the Big Chop...my choice) and wonder of wonders, the pathology report said that there were no live cancer cells anywhere in the breast or any of the nodes, (had full clearance  on the left and sentinal nodes on the right. All that was left were the empty beds where the tumours had been. I am now two years post diagnosis and fourteen months post surgery and am officially Ned..no evidence of disease. Sending the biggest hug. ((( hug ))).