@Jenv Glad you sorted out what it was, I think the best thing you could do is keep talking to your Oncologist, tell him exactly how youre feeling about everything! I know when I had my recurrence in 2015 I was mentally RS and for me its still a journey back so I can only imagine how you feel. As you say family are so difficult to contend with...because what you need the most is normality, to be treated normal. I Found I just withdrew from people because they dont get it and I lost tolerance for ignorance. didnt want pity just to be treated normal. Mentally and emotionally I find a much bigger battle than the physical at times. Its hard to keep going and face the next thing. I know when I did chemo I wanted to curl up and end it..the most soul destroying thing Ive ever been through in my life. Great thing Ive found about coming here, is we all just get it...and its so damn supportive....so big hugs to you for sharing! glad youve got your balance again. Melinda xo
