Thanks ladies for your replies - extremely appreciated.
@Christabel03 thank you for the updated, I hope the 3 weeks goes well for you. Will be interesting to see how you feel on your T break. If you can, please update, it may be something I need to also look into trialling xx
@lamberly sorry to hear you are also struggling with anxiety. I too am a born worrier, but this is next level. With my 1st upcoming scans, I am not sure I am strong enough to face. Insomnia is kicking in with me too, although I exercise daily. The struggle is real hey. Big hugs to you also xx
I had another counselling session with cancer council, when she asked me a series of questions it made it cement in a little more when I answered how often do you feel down the past 2 weeks, the answer is daily. and losing joy in things I used to enjoy. Not all day every day, but definitely daily. I want to be ok and I know I will never be my old self, but I want to feel a little joy each day, I don't quite know how to put it into words, I really do think I may need some extra help more than I can achieve on my own through my own measures, I am meeting with my onc this week to discuss and see what his thoughts are.
Thanks ladies, have a great weekend :-)