Caught in the middle

I guess in part my problem is compounded by guilt- I am human- I need to discuss, to complain, to express my fears and frustrations yet every time I vent I feel guilty because my problems are so trivial to others who have been dealt tougher cards. I am alive, I have a supportive family, I still enjoy my work. I just wish I appreciated more what I had before. I morn the opportunities I frittered away when I was sure I was going to live much longer. The hard part is reconciling the desire to live for today with the need to keep everything normal for my family. How do you balance your goals? Do I save to provide for my children's future or spend to create memories? I constantly question how to maximise the time I have left on this crazy planet.