Hi @Julez1958
I have always had more than a few ADHD (inattentive type) traits and have masked most of them with strategies that worked quite well to cope with some of the more difficult aspects of it. Since treatment for BC I have found that I am having more difficulties, old strategies are not working well. I'm currently seeing a therapist and undergoing assessment for ADHD. (I don't have the final word yet but she assures me that, yep, I do have it).
There are some good aspects to ADHD, I love the creative side, the flow of ideas when you are really focused in on something, the feeling like your mind is buzzing with ideas and the ability to think laterally, connecting seemingly random things.
I feel that the more difficult side of ADHD has increased exponentially, while my ability to be creative (writing and art) has almost disappeared. I know it sounds crazy, but that upsets me more than the loss of my breast.
Physically everything has healed well. There have been and still are some very unpleasant physical side effects, but I can deal with those, this on the other hand, has really thrown me.
I am grateful I am alive and I know that many have it so much worse but I can't help feeling like another part of me is missing. I feel dimmed own and overwhelmed at the same time...
