We all feel battered and bruised and high maintenance medically, but the reality is our new normal is still evolving and we have an heightened awareness of our health as we don't want a repeat performance. Some are unfortunate to be in that predicament but the rest of us are just what you called scared s...tless that we'll be in that roller coaster again. Yes we all know that we have to put it to one side, get back to normal (whatever that is) and the odds are such that it is not all that will find themselves in a repeat performance but geez ..............all the hidden extras, side effects, don't they drive you nutty!
I've got oedema in my left foob which developed a month after rads. I now spend an hour a week with a very chatty woman who massages my tit. FFS, when does enough become really enough--because I've just about had enough.
Politeness sometimes is hard to adhere to when you are at the end of your tether!
Take care and roll with it and remember we get it!