Hi Ann58 . So sorry you are suffering from the horrid waking fears. I support Sheila's comments but it is still awful waiting, waiting, waiting for results, treatments, appointments and all the while not being able to see what's going on inside you or not knowing what the outcomes will be. Definitely discuss your fears and lack of sleep with your treating professionals. Call on any supportive friends to help you through this worrying period. I found keeping occupied, walking the dog daily, playing relaxing music, tai chi all helped me through the tough times. Good luck!