You know what? There is always hope! Sometimes I think I get hope and "putting my head in the sand" a bit confused......it works for me and that's what counts! It's important to be kind to yourself and not put too much pressure on yourself. There is a lot of pressure to be brave and strong when we don't feel like that at all.........my personal motto now is "just do the best you can" and I think this every day as it lets me be myself.I once saw a tiny pre term infant in the hospital humidicrib and her name was Hope, I often think of that baby and her parents naming her.