Hi Angelo. I'm so sorry that this has come to pass. I have a little knowledge as I watched my sister go through this situation. As is often said here, it's a rollercoaster. I think you'll have periods of tears, rage, and a combination of both. However for all the bitterness and other emotions that don't make us feel good, you'll also have spells of happiness and laughter, love, and maybe even joy. We have people on this forum living with mets who know much better than I, an observer. Know that you can come here for support whenever you need it. You're not alone. Biggest of hugs, K xox