Hi Squeaky Pea,
I have just re read both of your blogs, and it is very sad. What a bugger, and how unfair life can be. You certainly seem to have a fighting spirit, so fight hard, you have lots to live for. Don't be too hard on your self about your lifestyle. One of the issues with breat cancer, is that they don't really know what causes it. We know smoking can cause lung cancer, asbestos can cause mesothelioma, and even burnt meat might have a connection with bowel cancer, but with breast cancer no one really knows. People talk about stress being a cause, and it might be, but I wasn't stressed at all, and I got it. I also breast fed 4 children in my 20's and that is supposed to be a preventative breast cancer measure, but it didn't help me. You will have done nothing in your young life to contribute to your cancer, except, being female. Cancer suxs, and this site is just perfect to rant and rave on. You will find lots of support here, and quite a few young women like yourself.
Love Chris xx