@Kattykit
Welcome to the forum! There's wonderful resources within the BCNA website that you may find help, as well as groups to join within the forum and this open forum that we are currently nattering on! Hopefully you'll find comfort here knowing that we're all in the thick of it!, we get it!
As you start to explore one that I hope you maybe able to take advantage of is the Otis Foundation - if you use the search bar at the top of this page and put in the words Otis Foundation you will find stories that some of us have put up about our wonderful free break this Foundation offers
https://www.bcna.org.au/services-and-support-groups/services/the-otis-foundation/Take care