@Vivianna. This metastatic roller coaster is forever. Throwing challenges at us.
I know for myself i have thought Im sick of this what would happen if I stopped all treatment and just when I thought it was a waste of time, something would come along that showed me i needed and that i had to keep fighting. Whether it was me stabilising or one of kids/grandkids needed me.
2 years down the track with mets I’m glad I persevered. none of knows exactly what the future holds.
I gave the trust back to my health team. Listened asked questions and went from there.
I hope you can get through it all. And know in yourself you did everything you could.
Never regretting your choices they are yours only to make.