Oh my gosh, @Vivianna - you've had a really tough time of it, that is for sure and this is not the news you wanted to hear. :(
Have you joined the Mets Group, where you can chat in total privacy with others?
Your diagnosis has given you a massive shock - just know that not all with mets have to have invasive, nasty treatment - I have 2 buddies locally who are just on AIs for the last 3 years & are going really well, with minimal side effects. Have you chatted with a Medical Oncologist yet, to determine exactly what treatments may be on offer for you - or even trials as treatments have advanced so much in the last 5-6 years.
I hope you have family and friends to lean on, specially at this time of the year? xx Please consider Ringing our helpline on
1800 500 258 to have a chat xx
take care xx