Welcome @TOmmy, to this very informative forum of such beautiful people that have been where you are at the moment, we are here to help you through these times.
When I was diagnosed back in late 2018 , I found this site to be so reassuring and knowing that everybody just got where I was coming from as they have been there to.
We all deal with emotions differently, I found myself to be a tough person on the outside , but on the inside I was just mush, but I didn’t like to show other people my emotions.
Take one day at a time, don’t worry that you haven’t cried much, our children and families make us fight that much harder.
You can do this, take one day at a time.
Sending positive vibes and a virtual hug your way.
Take Care xx