Hey @Capricorn68 how are you travelling? You have had so much going on. Breast cancer can seem to strike us when we are already battling other difficulties in life. I hope that you are feeling a bit better than in September. There are so many aspects of our life that can hit us in the face unexpectedly, and make us feel 'not like myself' all over again. Each one a hurdle, that we have to slowly climb over, or get around in our own unique way. After a major life trauma many years ago, I sat down eventually, and thought to myself, what used to give me joy in life? I found that it was gardening, so starting with a few pots I started to garden again. I don't have much time there, but when I am in the garden, I feel so peaceful. I hope you find some activity that gives you peace and joy, and relieves your pains.