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kezmusc
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6 years ago

Anyone ever get sick of being their own science experiment?????

I really get the shits with overthinking every so often.    Things that "before" you would never have thought twice about doing, eating or cleaning your house with now make you second guess a lot of things.  Obviously I am not the only one considering the amount of conversations that go on here regarding the do's, don'ts and what can we change that might help to stop it coming back.  Looking for answers on what we did to bring it on.  Self blame and guilt is still rampant no matter how much it shouldn't be.

BC is not your fault.  That fucker broke in you didn't invite it in by living a normal life like millions of other people do.

I don't think anything I did brought it on, nor do I seriously think that anything I eat, drink or do will have much of a bearing on whether or not it reappears. I am a believer of dodgy genes, mutant cells,bad luck and not everything was nuked if it comes back. Will the tablets work? Maybe they will, maybe they wont. "May the odds be forever in your favour"

Mostly I ignore the over analysing thoughts, but every so often they creep in uninvited. I conduct clinical trials on myself to see if things help with side effects.  Should I be doing that, I really have no knowledge of what interferes with what apart from what I can google which can have 10 different answers to the same question.

I had a cold...do I take vitamin C or not? Should I take any kind of vitamins or supplements.  How the heck would I know.  My levels are good so what is the point.

Don't eat this, don't drink this, don't rub that on. Will that interfere with the drugs?  OMG I drank a bottle of wine, that shits definitely coming back now.

Eat soy, don't eat soy, not that I really care about soy, quite frankly I think it tastes like crap but you know.

Sweet potato is good for you, sweet potato is high in oestrogen, best not. Nuts are good for you, nope not today. Kale (gross) celery alfalfa, tofu, olives, olive oil, red wine.  Great for your heart, nope, high in oestrogen. Eat meat, don't eat meat, don't dare grill it if you do. Flax seed and tumeric is awesome, uh oh, no not for you it isn't, too many phytoestrogens. Oh but hang on, in normal people they might help prevent cancer. Freaking strawberries and peaches are on the no no list.

The list is endless, confusing and mostly without any kind of definitive answers.  Might, maybe, could do, possibly, we don't know. Pick any subject or food and you will find people raving about how fantastic it is and on another page how it gave you cancer. 

Don't you drink that chamomile tea and don't you even think about smelling that fucking lavender :)

Blah. Ok I'm done.

Hugs to all.
xoxoxo





  • All those self righteous, kale chomping paragons of virtue will be just as dead as me when they finally drop off their perch. This is my philosophy.
  • Well said, @kezmusc.  Living a 'good' life did me no good as the BC appeared so now i eat and drink what I want, with some reasoning at times.
    Agree with the philosophy of @AllyJay (above). !!!!!!
  • Not as exciting but I've seen a flying kangaroo.  I was driving along my road at dusk.  It's kind of cut into the hillside in places so some very high embankments.  A kangaroo must have taken the wrong route because it came flying through the air in an almighty leap into the road in front of me.
  • OMG @Sister  - thank god it missed you!  They can do fearsome damage!!!   I hit one once in my little old Ford Laser - and the roo came off 2nd best!!!  

  • Id like to fly with pigs and pugs..say hello to the man in the moon and Buttercup the Jersey cow.
    Laugh till  i float to the ceiling and lunch with the fish under the sea..Who will come with me?
    Celebrate the healing journey Gravity cannot ground us..
    Group hug to all..


  • Mary Poppins! Yes, I'd like to laugh until I float to the ceiling, but I'm not so keen on lunching with the fishies. Hope you're having a good weekend @EAA. K xox
  • Have you been getting stuck into the wrong type of medicinal oil @EAA?
  • @kezmusc Oh yeah. I spend so much time and mental energy "managing" my health these days. It's SO boring. And planning and committing to even the simplest things become a huge analytical exercise. I think I need some of whatever @EAA is on.