@kmakm well said, that is exactly how I feel too! Dr De Boer is wonderful and yes he is my Oncologist but he has told me that exercise and diet will not stop a recurrence...though we ALL do it anyway, even when its impossible to even get out the bed everyday. I dont do much exercise I admit currently because Im too fatigued from working 5 days a week. They dont factor in any of it, there is no normality and the only way through it? is a total reassessment and adjustment to a different life a less than happy one I guess because thats the reality that they just refuse to hear.
I think I did actually say to my Oncologist at one point, for me I was like Im starting to wonder what is the point of having been through the copious amounts of surgeries and treatment to be living this 'new normal' its not living, not really. The funny thing for me is, he's not worried about a recurrence, he's watching for a secondary...lovely!!! thanks for the optimism lol..blah blah blah...not interested. So then how will an AI benefit me?? lol thats my next question when I see him.
The hardest thing to remember is for an Oncologist this is their job, dealing with patients with Cancer, so they treat purely based on that, for them its not about the hereafter, theyre only interested in treating.
Isnt it amazing how I know for me I can flip between being grateful and being incredibly cynical :/ thank goodness for a sense of humour!!!!
So I just live the good life and do the best I can...and nobody but nobody knows the challenges or depths I personally get to just to work or exist...because I never speak of it.
I know many can identify with it all.
