@kmakm I couldn’t agree more. Family and friends expect that we will just return to normal life and taking a little pill shouldn’t be any issue just like taking a pill for blood pressure or diabetes. I was guilty of thinking this way when my own Mum was on tamoxifen after her diagnosis. She would hobble around and often struggled but I just thought she needed to “ get on with her life” it wasn’t until my own diagnosis that I realised how incredibly brave she was to go through all of the treatments that she did and I regret that she passed away before I was aware and could tell her how strong she was. At times I feel that people think I’m ungrateful for the care I have been given which is so far from the reality. Right now I’m lying in hospital wide awake at 3:47 am as a result of these treatments. While I am so incredibly aware of how lucky I am to have had access to this level of expert care, I can’t help but grieve for my old version of myself that I now know will never be back and that is ok.
PS a while ago in a moment of boredom, I compiled a little list of the uneducated but well meaning comments that people had made. Now I can look back on it and laugh because I know that God only gives you what he knows you can handle and what doesn’t kill you make you stronger. We should all be amazon women by now lol.
Polly xoxox
