Bit scared
Hi All
i went in for treatment on Thursday (herceptin) and mentioned that I have had pain in my back and knee for a few days. I do have hip and back pain from arthritis but this is different and in a different spot. The reaction of my onc nurse freaked me out. She took it all very seriously and went straight to speak to the onc. They have said to take endone and tramal drops for the pain and have made an appointment for me next Thursday. The meds are only taking the edge off the pain. I'm trying really hard to keep a lid on my feelings and I don't dare tell anyone around me what I'm thinking. Why upset everyone if it turns out to be nothing? I'm struggling to stifle the fear and anxiety I'm feeling. Poor hubby is already at breaking point after the last year and then with me getting the sack last month. I keep telling myself it will be nothing but the fact is, it may be something. It seems silly to worry about something that may not even happen and certainly nothing that I don't have any control over, but I just can't seem to stop it. I have come down with a cold and broken out in shingles. I feel as though my body is screaming ENOUGH! I have 2 more herceptin treatments to go and then I'm supposed to be done. But bloody breast cancer, the gift that keeps on giving. I don't think this ride will ever truly end. Karen