Hi Smiley :)
Its a hard journey to go but guess what you just made it though one of the hardest ones, so it will work its self out. Take the time to enjoy life, everything else will fall into place. Another job quiet different might be just around the corner,let it come!!! You will never be the same before BC, but once you move on from that, it becomes easier. We all care and hope we can help you through it. I changed my job and took the stress out of it and it is working well for me.
Take care babe
SueEllen xx :)