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Hi cowgirl sorry you had a bad day. :-( maybe its the moon or the winter weather... i also started today weeping and tears were never far away the whole day. 3 weeks out from my unilateral exchange with a silicone implant i tried on some of my old  bras this morning and wasnt very happy. I know im probably still swollen but i just wish my life could be how it was before.  My partner has been working  away since the exchange and of course i felt like its because he doesnt want me any more.  I never told any of my friends what ive been through yet im feeling isolated like no one cares. Which is stupid. My son and wife had first baby ,my first grandchild, last week HOORAY and there were a few probs so im having to give them a lot of space have seen bubby twice but havent had a cuddle yet. I am feeling old. I know what you mean i am cancer free as well thank goodness and in the grand scheme of things i know i am one of the really really lucky ones. I think while ur going through the treatment etc youre all strong and purposeful, but now im at the stage where the shock is fading and im going omg this is it this is how i am forever. Its ok to cry and grieve. We have been through something horrible and scary. Youre lucky you have a good breast nurse to talk to. They are wonderful angels. Sorry i cant say much comforting stuff it just isnt my way but i do feel empathy to your plight and agree it sucks!!!!! Xxx