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magicmum
14 years agoMember
Who me ?
"Come back for another scan, there's a grey area"
That was just over 4 weeks ago, and I thought "who, me ?" I was so sure it was just a bruise from when I had fallen some weeks before, and then they started scanning in a different spot . . .
*It's very small" "we've caught it early " "you'll be fine"
There's a little part of my head that just won't let me believe those things right now.
I have a wonderful surgeon who has done the wide excision and the sentinel node biopsy (results next Tuesday) and a fabulous support network including my family, my collegues at work and my old Nursing Mothers group - we've been friends forever, nearly 30 years, and their love is astounding.
I am talking positively to myself every day, filling myself with good thoughts, moving forward. Everything so far has been very smooth, and fast. But that fear of the unknown is inescapable in the middle of the night - what if it is already somewhere else ? Is my slightly upset tummy just nerves, or something sinister ? How do I know that my aching legs are just menopausal ? How will I stop myself from bombarding my doctor wih requests for cancer scans on every part of my body ?
How do you cope with that ? Can anyone offer any thoughts ?
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- magicmumMember
Chemo #3 down and now I'm on the downside of this part of the trip. It feels good.
Same reaction as before on the day - none ! Feeling a wee bit tired this evening but I'm expecting that. I had a companion at the unit today that my sister knew (my sister was my ice buddy today) and this lady has all sorts of cancer, terminal, she's just having treatment to slow it down a bit so she can settle her life. Only 45. I felt sad, and slightly guilty for being as lucky as I am.
I know I have a lifelong journey ahead but right now I'm ok - I just have to be watched and be ready.
I hope all your "trips" are going as well as can be expected at the moment.
Tonight is a thinking night.
magicmum
- magicmumMember
Good advice - I am taking echinacea/vit C/zinc tablets which can't hurt.Love the sound of the garlic bread with soup, have to try that.
Yes, man flu ! I know he's unwell but he thinks he's dying ! I told him he can't die yet cos I wouldn't be able to manage without him and besides I don't get a pension for another 6 years and his super won't last me long enough !!!! That made him feel all warm fuzzy and loved , haha.
Good news is that my tummy has begun to work again - so that's the GLAD for today.
magicmum
- LisaGMember
O no - not Man Flu!!? Luckily it only affects men in a life threatening manner - ha ha. I have found that the best way to head off a cold/flu bug is to hit up the Vitamin C and Echinacea but of course we are not in a normal situation so hopefully your GP will dose you up with something quick and seriously effective. Good luck with that! How's your skill with chicken soup? We like to rub a fresh garlic clove on to hot toast - it melts straight in and makes for a really strong garlic hit with your soup - the bonus is you wont have to worry about stinky breath with your husband sleeping on the couch ;-)
Look after yourself. O and I agree - a meeting on the other side of all this would be great! I was tempted to go to the convention in Sydney but I will be in the middle of my radiation treatment and unable to get away...
- magicmumMember
Rats. My husband caught a cold and he tried SO hard to stay away - sleeping on the sofa, isolating himself and his germs - but I got it. It's now moved into a sort of bronchial cough so my onc says go to the GP and make sure it's not bacterial yet.
I'm making my h go too, he has "man flu" of course so it may be ok but he had pleurisy once so his chest is inclined to be a bit weak. Better to be safe - and he didn't have a flu shot this year, I TOLD him it would be a mistake.
Apart from that still feeling ok, although constipation is this cycle's feature !! Have to hit some Senna tonight I think, can't be much room left !
Hope you journeys are all progressing - one step at a time girls, we'll get to the finish line in the end. Wouldn't it be good if there was a magic way to meet everyone you've "met" on this site ? I feel I have so many new friends.
much love and keep on keeping on
magicmum
- magicmumMember
Rats - headache today. Not too bad though, just sleeping it off. But I feel SOO weary, maybe have to watch how much work I can actually do. When I'm feeling good I just go in as normal - hmmmm, perhaps that's what has caused this headache.
Or else it's just I'm at the 10 day low point and things will be good from now ! Let'sgo with that.
magicmum
- magicmumMember
I have discovered that I just LOVE tinned spaghetti ! There are so many things that I normally love that just don't taste right and I don't want them - but a little tin of spaghetti and a piece of hot toast just fits the bill perfectly. It's prob not particularly nutritious but I don't care about that. I'm trying to eat veg and fruit to keep my tummy working, and struggling to keep a good amount of fluid going down - just don't want that either. Although last night I started a can of lemonade and that was quite nice, it's even nice today a bit flat. Gradullay I'll find the things I can actually enjoy the taste of - I just wish it was cappuccino !!!!! Still can't enjoy my coffee :(
On a really up note - I have had NO HEADACHES this cycle, it's amazingly awesome !!!! The preventer my doc found is working a treat I am so thrilled. Going to be taking that for the rest of mylife - no more migraines, yayy !!!!!!
Keep on keeping on girls
magicmum
- magicmumMember
Thanks for that - I told the hairdresser that I needed to look fabulous for the first time at work with my new do. And she came up trumps.
Keitha
- chipmunkMemberHi Magicmum You look fabulous. It suits you heaps. Mine is still sitting in it's stand, not used yet. I just can't find he courage to wear it yet. And besides having shingles the other week on my head was a definite no no to wig or any hats etc.... Great to hear that you are doing a few hours of work. Me to, I do about 15-20 hours a week. Body can't do much more than that at the moment. Anyway , take care a and keep us posted. Love Julie xx
- chipmunkMemberHi Magicmum You look fabulous. It suits you heaps. Mine is still sitting in it's stand, not used yet. I just can't find he courage to wear it yet. And besides having shingles the other week on my head was a definite no no to wig or any hats etc.... Great to hear that you are doing a few hours of work. Me to, I do about 15-20 hours a week. Body can't do much more than that at the moment. Anyway , take care a and keep us posted. Love Julie xx
- magicmumMember
My husband has promised to take another one in daylight - with a smile ! I always manage to look grim in pics :P That was taken after work the first time I wore it.
I know what you mean about the "tight" feeling. I can only do it for about 3 hrs. Rest of the time my lovely hats are just comfy and fine. My friend who promised to make me some stylish ones is still procrastinating !! But hopefully I will have a good range soon.
I have one lovelysoft woollen one I prefer at home, so cosy. Actually looks a bit like a tea cosy but I don't care!!!
I amlucky in that I can go towork or not as I choose - it's casual - and I quite enjoy it, makes the time pass. Been feeling very tired after this second cycle, sleeping heaps, so I spose that's good.
Take special care of yourself.
magicmum