Things i need

I am sure you are stressed...aren't we all.? It certainly is different from work stress though...it's not that immediate gotta do this now type thing...but that back of your mind worrying you when you try to sleep type thing. However crying is normal. I balled when my great chunks of hair fell out....I didn't cry when I looked at my mastectomy reconstruction scars though. I cried at my portacath scar though. Sometimes I cry for no reason I believe except the effects chemo is having on my seretonin levels.  Little things can make me cry. Yet big stuff doesn't.  But...as long as we can talk it through. As long as we can get reasonable sleep, find joy in our day and want to socialise when we feel well..., then hell we are doing okay.  I am now hat and scarf obsessed. I spend more time on my appearance than I did with hair, lol. I'm writing this with a panda hat on, lol. You'll know when or if you need an outsider to talk too. Just tell your family like I did...sonetimes I just need a hug. Grievibg for our old life is normal. Stay strong. Kath x