Yes I think of the IF in capital letters. I try to look after myself. I am doing more exercise than I ever have before. I remain overweight. But I am trying. Maybe I will be lucky and maybe the IF will never happen.
I make compromises and I live for now. I am planning the dream holiday but it can't happen for almost 2 years because my son will do the HSC next year. Family is everything to me; my health and their interests have to go hand in hand.
I do what I can. I am sure I will be here for some years to come.