The Disconnect

Hi Donna

Thanks for your reply. The more I read these replies to my post the more normal I feel. I thought maybe there was something wrong with me and I just wasn't handling things well!

Somewhat ironically, I am a Clinical Psychologist! I guess that made me think that I "should" be able to work this out myself. But to be honest, I think I'm avoiding talking about it because it feels so overwhelming. I feel that once I began to talk about it I'd just fall apart and wouldn't be able to pull myself together again. I've only written not even half of what has happened on this blog. Over the last seven years as well as what I discussed earlier. My youngest son moved to the other side of Australia;I've had three other family members die (one committed suicide); my Mother in Law was in a Coma on life support for a month and I did all the family liaison stuff with the medical staff; my husband had a major bike accident, then so did my son; both of my dogs died; my best friend moved to the other side of Australia.... twice (she moved back the first time). It reminds me of a line from a movie where the main character said "don't tell me you know how I feel, if you knew how I felt you'd be screaming".... so a walk through each day with a part of me watching, feeling disconnected from everyone who matters to me.

It really helps to say this to people who understand. But all the responses I have had from all these caring lovely women are right... I need to call my Psych... who would have thought? LOL

My thanks for taking the time to respond, for your care and wisdom. I hope that you're doing well and are clear and healthy.

Amanda (xo to all)