Whinge away. You are only saying what we are all thinking at one time or another. Some days or moments are great, some not so. Yes, especially in the mornings after lying in bed not sleeping and trying to put weight on my feet and ankles that feel broken. I say to myself "piss off Effie". "Effie" is what I call not just the cancer but the whole shebang - it's actually a shortened name for Effing ($&@!ing) cancer. My girlfriend and I (fellow bc sister) came up with that when we Were texting each other through chemo. At the end of our rants we would say "effing cancer" and we then started referring to it like a third person like "partied big time with Effie last night, ended up taking meds for bone pain". I may sound crazy but these stupid little bits of humour help and I can then rant and whinge and not feel so weak. Sorry if anyone on here's name is Effie! Lisa xx