Thank you Anita

Thank you to all of the beautiful ladies who have helped me so far in my journey. I'd love to meet each one of you in person one day to truly express appreciation. I thought I'd just post an update to let you know how I'm travelling. Following the panic attacks I'm starting to settle a little now and my meds for Parkinson's and depression have been slightly increased so I think that has helped. I'm slowly reducing the Valium during the day so that my mind is a little more alert. The Parkinson's disease slows me down considerably and makes me quite tired so I get frustrated that I can only walk short distances before having to rest and weed my garden sitting on a stool now. I have also enlisted my husbands help to just drive to the beach or go somewhere so that I can see something different to think about. Houses can become very claustrophobic after many months. I am finding it a challenge to change from full day "Sandra's on a mission" shopping trips as my family called them to half hour sessions. I'm also reaching out to people with whom I have lost contact over the years since we moved to the country many years ago. I am so thankful that we are in the city now and Feel so deeply for those of you who know what it's like to be in hospital a long way from home and loved ones. Back on track now. I see the surgeon on the 9th October. My daughter is coming with me because my dear hubby is in nearly as much distress as me and he forgets what doctor says sometimes too. It will give Nicole the opportunity to ask her questions too and get a better understanding of everything. I'm just hoping now that once the decision is made we can get the operation phase over with and start on the recovery and the future what ever that may be. I'm a true believer though that when a door closes another one opens and so I'm doing my best to look forward even whilst I grieve the past. I've discovered through all this, that the grieving can't be escaped but must be experienced before one can be free of it. It seems to be a bit like putting out a fire. Every time you rake over the coals they burn a little less intensely until the heat has gone. Heart hugs to all of you other champions. Sandra