Hi Linda
A few of us were 'talking' the other day about how having such a serious health problem (and you have had more than one) really saps your confidence. We are not really the same because of what has happened and the complete shake up this gives your life.
I think what you are experiencing is very common and the person we most have to convince that we can be strong and capable again is ourselves. We have to find ways of boosting our confidence and giving ourselves that taste for excelling again.
Sometimes that just takes time and we need to not put ourselves under too much pressure until that inner strength has a chance to build again. I had to find ways of giving myself some energy again. Some people in our lives help that process and some don't. Spend time with those who do and avoid those who hinder it (where possible, it can be tough in a work environment). Same with what you choose to do outside of work. Do things that help to make you feel good and stronger again.
Try not to blame yourself if something does not work out. Give yourself credit for just keeping on trying because that is really , really hard when you've had a bit of a battle. Just believe that it is going to happen and one day you'll suddenly realise that it has. Good luck with your new job and take it easy on yourself. That capable, strong person is still there inside you just give yourself a chance to shine through all the tough things you've had to do. When you really think about it you have had the toughest time of your whole life and you've kept working and have never given in. You are stronger than ever right now. Just remember that and you'll be fine. Take care. Deanne xxx