Resentment

You poor thing.  I'm so sorry Karen that you are so upset and sad but gosh you have all the right in the world!  When I read the part where your hubby asked "when does it ever end?" my stomach turned upside down and my throat closed up from feeling your frustration at the hurtful words.  This NEVER ends for us, you have no choice in any of what's come your way.  Sure we have a choice on how we react but gosh, it is so upsetting when the ones that are closest to you are the ones that really don't get it.  I am so sorry that you feel so alone, but you are never ever alone here with us.  We all GET it!  we all appreciate what it means to go through the mental, physical and emotional changes that is cancer and that this takes time meaning many changes, many phases, many fears, many uncertainties.  It is the 'for worse' part we said yes to in our marriage vows.  I fully agree with Jaycia02's comments, about setting some ground rules for the family to step up.  We just can't do it all on our own.  Take care of yourself, allow yourself healing time and ask them for their practical support while you adjust to life.  Hope you feel better soon. Virtual hugs xxx