Thank you to all you wonderful ladies for your suggestions and comments.i have gone and got a mental health plan and think I will make a appointment to see a psychologist. It is nice to know that my worry and fear is normal and that as time passes hopefully my worries will become less.its nice to hear off ladies that are years down the track and doing well as when I was first diagnosed I pretty much had thought gee that's it for me as I was 40 years old when diagnosed.i think training myself to be positive is a good idea .i have started meditation too which I'm finding helpful.xx