Hi I to read your blog with sadness too,maybe husband is scared shi-less and doesn't know how to react , are you scared to? This damn disease is one of the scariest things ever and sometimes people just can't deal with it. Reality is not everyone can make it better and just sometimes we have to try to gather everybit of strength to pull ourselves out of that bloody hole to live, hopefully you can get out and claim back some of the good and love yourself back you deserve it. Do whatever you need to as much as you can and at least youve given it a shot, whatever, Possibly you can salvage your relationship and if not maybe you can accept that to, hope us ladies input may have given you a bit of help. Regards adean