Hi Mel
I can so relate to growing apart and in different directions from your husband. The same thing happened for me after 13 years of marraige, we just grew apart and out of love. We made two beautiful children together which unfortunately has brought me and my ex back together on occasions and I look at him now and go what on earth did I ever see in him.
It is funny how we change. My decision didn't have anything to do with any BC diagnosis for me it was just growing up I think. All I can tell is it was very very tough and he made my life hell when I decided to leave but I haven't looked back.
I agree you have some tough decisions to make and to be honest I wouldn't want to go back down that path again now, one I am too old :-) and two it took so much out of me and aged me considerably. It tore my kids apart (broke their hearts) and my family, who had always thought he was a great dad, husband and provider BUT they didn't live with him and they certainly didn't see the other side of the man I had to live with. I have no regrets now but it was very very hard what me and my children went through.
Have you tried to talk with hubby about how you are feeling?
I wish you the very best with what you are dealing with and hoping whatever you decide will make you happy as life is too short for us not to be happy.
LOL,
Mich xoxo