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-Samantha-
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15 years ago

My Heart

My Heart

My heart yearns for yesterday,
When Cancer hadn’t invaded my breasts.

My heart yearns for the old me,
When I wasn’t scarred on the outside, or the inside.

My heart yearns for the knowledge
That my husband and I will grow old together.

My heart yearns for my daughters,
That they will never know breast cancer like I do.

But mostly my heart breaks.

It breaks when I see the woman that used to be me,

With her bald head wrapped tightly in a scarf,
Walking her child into school,
Playing in the park,
Pushing her trolley in the supermarket.

It breaks when I know all she is enduring just to stay with her family.

It breaks my heart to know the chaos taking place inside her,
The feelings of helplessness, confusion and anxiety.

It breaks my heart to see her looking around,
Wondering how many people are looking & feeling pity for her.

It breaks to know how bravely she carries on,
Defiantly showing the world that everything is still “normal”.

It breaks when I hear of another beautiful woman diagnosed with this disease.

It breaks my heart to know she won’t be the last.

- SAMANTHA DICICCO JULY 2011

9 Replies

  • Gaylene's avatar
    Gaylene
    Member
    15 years ago

    Wow thanks Sam, very moving and true poem, think you should definately give some thought to taking up writing again as this will touch the hearts of so many of us.

    Thanks for allowing me to share in you feelings.

     

    Gaylene

  • Amy's avatar
    Amy
    Member
    15 years ago

    Thanks for putting into words everything that we're feeling....stay strong.

    xxx

  • Amy's avatar
    Amy
    Member
    15 years ago

    Thanks for putting into words everything that we're feeling....stay strong.

    xxx

  • kay's avatar
    kay
    Member
    15 years ago

    that's really lovely.  When I was first diagnosed and then had to do chemo. I was crying when I went out to the car from the supermarket. My husband was picking me up. I had just seen some ladies with scarves on their head walk by and they were bald underneath. I knew that was what I had to go through, losing my hair.  I could deal with most things but not losing my hair.

    Thanks for sharing

    Kay

  • Julia44's avatar
    Julia44
    Member
    15 years ago

    I too read it with tears in my eyes.  So much of what you say is true for us all!

    very moving.

    Hope you are travelling well.

    Julia

  • Julia44's avatar
    Julia44
    Member
    15 years ago

    I too read it with tears in my eyes.  So much of what you say is true for us all!

    very moving.

    Hope you are travelling well.

    Julia

  • Di_BCNA's avatar
    Di_BCNA
    Member
    15 years ago

    That's a beautiful poem, Sam.  Thanks so much for posting it

    ~Di xx

  • Samantha_Cunnin's avatar
    Samantha_Cunnin
    Member
    15 years ago

    i think i got to the 3rd line when the tears started flowing...all u have wtitten is so true..and my heart feels the same

    its unfortunate we are in this situation, but so fortunate to have this site to be able to communicate our feeling, ask questions and give or receive support to so many others..

    thanx for putting into words what i know i feel every day

    sam  :)  xxx

     

  • Samantha_Cunnin's avatar
    Samantha_Cunnin
    Member
    15 years ago

    i think i got to the 3rd line when the tears started flowing...all u have wtitten is so true..and my heart feels the same

    its unfortunate we are in this situation, but so fortunate to have this site to be able to communicate our feeling, ask questions and give or receive support to so many others..

    thanx for putting into words what i know i feel every day

    sam  :)  xxx