I was thinking of you on Monday and wondering how you went. I'm glad it went well and you are feeling positive about the next shift!
I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. It is hard when we hear bad news.
In my previous work, I worked with young children with special needs. It seemed so unfair that these children and their families were dealt such a raw deal in life. But, these children were often amazingly giving and seeing them achieve new skills was the most wonderful thing that just seemed to ripple out and give joy to all those involved. Don't get me wrong, many of these children and their families face enormous difficulties but somehow this made their positive achievements more powerful. Maybe that is how life is. In order to experience real joy we have to endure the traumas too.
I lost a friend to bowel cancer recently and have three more facing life threatening/shortening situations. None of them want to be facing this but all of them want to make the most of every opportunity they have and want the same for all those around them. Life is never more precious than when it is threatened, as we all know.
Maybe winning the war is just to make the best of all the moments we possibly can. Take care. Deanne xxx