hi again robyn, you are at the early stages, and of course you are going to go through lots of emotions, i always thought i a was a positive strong person, but going through the journey, i was not in control of, made me see differently, so i locked the doors, cried and got my husband to take all phone calls and visitors, if i wasnt up to it, he let them know, and anyone who is still standing at the end and understands are your true friends, so concentrate on you for the next few months, and please let us know how you are doing, even if it is to cry, shout and bawl Take Care Moira