welcome to our little group of positive thinkers (well as much as we can be), here's hoping your treatment will start soonm then you can get your mind on the healing. as for negative people like tanya said clear them out of your life, if this is the way your boss treats you, i would hate to be one of her patients. At the beginning we are all scared and want to change things in our life, but when things settle we see them differently, so take your sick time as much as you need and are entitled to, then decide what you want to do, but most of all, you are the important one at the moment, so concetrate on yourself, and surround yourself with supportive people. One thing i have learnt on my journey. good luck and take care, and soon you like us will be helping others on here with support. take care and let us know how you are going. Moira