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Mich_x
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13 years ago

Life is so full of it's ups and downs

Hey my pink sisters

I just wanted to share with you because you are a big part of my family now.

I got a lovely phone call from my very lovely breast surgeon on Tuesday to finally get an answer on my comparison mammogram and ultrasound compared to my diagnosis pictures. I have been given the okay that there doesn't appear to be any cancer visible in my breasts. Needless to say I was very happy with hearing that news as I have been waitiing to get an answer for a while now. I was over the moon and so very happy that I had made it after enduring so much over the last 12 months and could now relax a little and enjoy life.

BUT

Just when I thought 2013 was defiinitely going to be MY YEAR I get a phone call from our local vet to say the X-ray they had just carried out on my precious, beautiful and amazing best friend (my wonderful dog Bundy) to tell me she now has cancer. She has cancer in the bone of her front leg. There is nothing we can do for her but to keep her comfortable. She is currently not in any pain but I have been given pain killers for when it will be necessary. I will definitely not let her suffer. She has been by my side (my velcro dog) for the last 12 months. She has known when I have been unwell and just layed by me, followed me everywhere and just been my most precious friend.

I feel that it is like she is saying, okay mum you are better now so I will let my illness start to affect me cause I know you are strong enough to care for me.

We have already decided that when her time comes that we will have her cremated and scatter her ashes over the ocean as she loves to walk, run and play at the beach.

She is so very precious to me and I am finding it very hard to cope at present.

Mich xoxo

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    Mich_x
    Member
    13 years ago

    Hey Kathy

    Thanks so much for your lovely words of wisdom and congrats.

    You have obviously been there and done that you poor thing but it is lovely to hear you are getting on with life and being positive.

    I know I also have some wonderful things to look forward to in the new year like my daughter have a daughter and my son's wife having their second.

    I do try not to worry and let things get me down but just sometimes you feel that you are getting up there and there something kicks you in the guts and knocks you right back down again.

    Life is pretty much an ongoing fight to deal with the ups and downs it throws our way.

    Thank you again and I wish you a beautiful Christmas with your new Grandy, friends, family and loved ones. May 2013 be a very happy and healthy one for you and yours.

    Lots of love

    Mich xoxo

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    Mich_x
    Member
    13 years ago

    Hey Julie

    A very merry Christmas and an excellent 2013 to you and yours.

    I really appreciate your kind words. Yep you are right obviously the curve balls are going to keep being thrown my way. I can probably deal with them more strongly than before BC but you still have to ask yourself why??

    You are probably right in that she knows I am better so it is her turn to be cared for. I just wish she didn't have to be going through this now or never.

    Enjoy your Chrissy and New Year and grab all the good stuff with both hands and hold on tight with all your might.

    Luvs to you and yours.

    Mich xoxoxo

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    pisces_tas
    Member
    13 years ago

    Hi Mich,

     Sorry to hear your beloved dog has bone cancer. I hope the dog is not suffering too much at present.

     I have loved pets, a dog for 7 years and a cat for 10. I do feel when the time comes, they can be euthanased quickly and painlessly. I was with my last cat when she went. It all happened very quickly.

     The cat I had for 10 years, ( just before my BC diagnosis  in 1998 ) I thought I would / could never love another pet so much again, but I have found that to not be true. LOVE IS...

    I cried and felt sad, but also happy she had had a good life and now I have another pet in my life; a male cat.. (for the first time as I usually have female pets. )

    He  has his own character, has a pretty good life and is quite a mature cat.

    Glad you have the all clear for now, with your BC. It can be an emotional time after you finish treatments. You may think.." Why me ? " Will I survive ? etc.. Why do some survive and some not? It it a cruel blow to have your dog ill now. It's the luck of the draw in some ways I think. Life  can be uncertain for us all.

      I recall I was " emotional"  on and off, for some time after the treatments. I still get that way, when I have annual double mammograms and ultrasounds, and doctors appoinments Then there is ageing to contend with.

    It will always be there to some extent, but it is easier now as I have adjusted to the new way of doing things and living. I am pretty content mostly. I volunteer and I recently became a grandmother for the first time. Not to say my life, does not still, have ups and downs.

    Learning to accept what life throws at you and trying not to worry too much, but to live day by day, is what I try and do now. Nothing stays the sae, so i try and " go with it " ( not always easy.. )

    Congratulations on coming this far, and I hope you have a Xmas spent with those you love and care about,

     Kathy.

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    pisces_tas
    Member
    13 years ago

    Hi Mich,

     Sorry to hear your beloved dog has bone cancer. I hope the dog is not suffering too much at present.

     I have loved pets, a dog for 7 years and a cat for 10. I do feel when the time comes, they can be euthanased quickly and painlessly. I was with my last cat when she went. It all happened very quickly.

     The cat I had for 10 years, ( just before my BC diagnosis  in 1998 ) I thought I would / could never love another pet so much again, but I have found that to not be true. LOVE IS...

    I cried and felt sad, but also happy she had had a good life and now I have another pet in my life; a male cat.. (for the first time as I usually have female pets. )

    He  has his own character, has a pretty good life and is quite a mature cat.

    Glad you have the all clear for now, with your BC. It can be an emotional time after you finish treatments. You may think.." Why me ? " Will I survive ? etc.. Why do some survive and some not? It it a cruel blow to have your dog ill now. It's the luck of the draw in some ways I think. Life  can be uncertain for us all.

      I recall I was " emotional"  on and off, for some time after the treatments. I still get that way, when I have annual double mammograms and ultrasounds, and doctors appoinments Then there is ageing to contend with.

    It will always be there to some extent, but it is easier now as I have adjusted to the new way of doing things and living. I am pretty content mostly. I volunteer and I recently became a grandmother for the first time. Not to say my life, does not still, have ups and downs.

    Learning to accept what life throws at you and trying not to worry too much, but to live day by day, is what I try and do now. Nothing stays the sae, so i try and " go with it " ( not always easy.. )

    Congratulations on coming this far, and I hope you have a Xmas spent with those you love and care about,

     Kathy.

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    Mich_x
    Member
    13 years ago

    Hey Lorraine

    Thank you for your kind thoughts and wishes. I am so sorry to hear of your loss of your precious Sebastian. It just isn't fair sometimes.

    We are enjoying every precious moment with our girl and I am willing myself to be so strong to get me through the time we have left with her and to be strong whent he time is right.

    Merry Christmas to you and your freinds, family and loved ones and wishing you a wonderful 2013.

    Lots of luv, Mich xoxo

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    Lorraine
    Member
    13 years ago

    Mich firstly congratulations on the good news about you.  I am so sorry to hear the news about Bundy.  It is very difficult to loose a close friend whoi has been through the tough times with you.,  Sadly I too lost my lovely Sebastian who had been a comfort to me during my recovery.

    Enjoy your time with Bundy and take care of yourself. Stay strong and happy and have a wonderful Christmas and may 2013 be good to you.

    Love

    Lorraine

     

     

     

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    Mich_x
    Member
    13 years ago

    Hey Michelle

    Thanks heaps for my congratulations. I was very gratifying to finally get the good news. Onwards and upwards now.

    BC has definitely made me stronger and I will have to use all that strength to see me through the pain of losing my girl when the time comes. She has been my partner through this whole journey and has been my reason for getting up every day. When I was so unwell during chemo she would come and nudge me with her wet cold nose to say hey mum are you okay. She would do it a number of times during the day. Now she does it as my alarm clock to say it is time to get up for my walk mum. I have been told that that will change rapidly now and just to let her walk if she wants to. She still does every morning lol. It is sad when you lose your best friend. She has had a good life with us though so I have no regrets that I have not given her everything I could and more

    How are you going, I hope you are doing well?. I think of you and all my sisters on BCNA and hope you are all doing well.

    Lots of love, Mich xoxo

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    Mich_x
    Member
    13 years ago

    Hey Janet

    Thank you so much for your warm and kind words. Yes I will find it hard to lose my precious Miss B as she has been a great comfort to me, just like your Daisy. They give you unconditional love no matter what.

    I am so glad to hear that I have been able to support you through your journey. It is a tough old road we travel. As they say what doesn't kill ya just makes you stronger and it is so true. There is always someone out there a lot worse off than us.

    It is so good that I am able to share my sadness of Bundy with you and all the other girls as I know you will all understand.

    Thank you for your lovely wishes for Miss B. You can be assured that I will make her last days very special with no suffering. Her and I are so lucky to have each other. 3 years ago our special Miss B was on death row but we saved her and she has given back to us tenfold as if she knows what we have done for her.

    Take care, enjoy life to the fullest every day and grab all the good stuff and hold on to it.

    Merry Christmas and a wonderful 2013.

    Luv Mich xoxo

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    Michelle_R
    Member
    13 years ago

    Firstly Mich, congratulations on your mammogram and USS results - that is the best news - have been waiting for your post on your results!

    I feel so sad to learn that your velcro dog now has cancer. Bundy has been so strong for you, just as you will be strong for her now. You have been a great partnership, and I feel your pain at the thought of losing her. I do hope she just drifts away quietly in her sleep when the time comes. Our dogs have always been family, too.

    Stay strong, Mich. Have a wonderful and loving Christmas with your family and Bundy. Love and hugs,

    Michelle