Dizumba,I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling miserable at the moment.It s hard enough getting over what you have ,and now having to worry about money,jobs and paying bills.I hope that you can manage to stay on top of things.It is true what you said,it always makes you feel better to get outside in the fresh air.It just seems to clear your mind.Gee 4 months has gone past quickly.I can actually still remember your first post on here! It is 5 months for me since chemo finished,and I feel well too.Keep smiling Dizumba.xoxRobyn