Hey @3boysmum, before you do anything else, how about booking a holiday with the boys if they are available for one with you? The Otis Foundation and its benefactors are so wonderful for offering mini holidays for breast cancer survivors and their families to de-stress. Here is the link
https://www.otisfoundation.org.au - dont know how quickly you will be able to book in but even if it's a little while it's something to look forward to. And as for whinging, no such thing on this site - you are venting and we all get it. Wishing you all the best with the rest of your treatment. Keep us all up to date with how you are going. Xx